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Monday, July 13, 2009

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Autobiography of George Muller
By George Muller
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Inspired by George Muller

I am currently reading the autobiography of George Muller and it is rather inspiring, although daunting at the same time. He claims that his primary purpose in setting up orphanages is to glorify God and show others that God hears and answers prayers -- those who trust in God will never be disappointed.  He never asked anyone to help finance his orphanages -- every penny he got was in answer to prayer.  As I read his account, I couldn't help but wonder whether Muller was a man of extraordinary faith, a saint whom God answered specially. But Muller emphasized that any man could be capable of such faith, and that he was specifically called to this journey to show others that God does answer prayer and that He is utterly trustworthy.   Moreover, someone asked Muller if it caused him great anxiety to depend on God daily for provision (he had to feed hundreds of orphans; often their bank account would be almost empty and he refused to buy any food/supplies on credit). He actually responded, no, that his mind is at rest, assured that God would provide at the right time. It's quite amazing, but at the same time, when we were children, were we not like Muller? Most of us were fortunate enough not to worry where our next meals came from, simply trusting our parents to provide for us adequately. So can't we trust our Heavenly Father in the same way? Anxiety is stirred up when we believe that it's all up to us; peace is found when we truly know the character of our Father and can trust Him. It's something to keep in mind in these turbulent economic times.

Also, Muller emphasizes that it is important to spend 1-2 hours in prayer, preferably early in the morning (I'm not a morning person!). Eric Liddell and Mother Teresa also prayed at length every day. So it seems that if you really want to follow God, you need to make significant time to hear him, and trust that He will make up for lost sleep.

I also liked how Muller seemed humble and totally open/surrendered to what God was doing in his life. Anytime he made a major decision, he perservered in prayer about it and carefully weighed the pros and cons (lest you think that he blindly made decisions by faith without applying his reason to the situation; I was impressed by the lists of pros and cons he documented in his account), but in the end, he was willing to do whatever God called him to, even if the situation seemed impossible. He was not a man controlled by sight, but walking by faith.


Monday, April 06, 2009

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ERIC LIDDELL: PURE GOLD
By DAVID MCCASLAND
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Absolute Surrender

I just finished reading a biography of Eric Liddell, which shares the painstaking details of his life.  That is to say, the author went to great pains to capture every single little detail he could...  He would have been better served by being more selective in what he wrote about, so that it would be more interesting, but, regardless, Liddell's life is still inspirational even with all the mundane details thrown in of what street he lived on or what his childhood home looked like.

What was most striking was what was said about him at his funeral.  I have included quotes below.  He had an extremely average ability -- but he was totally surrendered to God to the point that God could use those average talents to a remarkable extent.  I never realized that Eric's running was a mystery to people -- how he could run with his head up in the air, eyes gazing at the sky, arms churning like windmills.  No one can understand how he could possibly have won the 400m at the Paris Olympics and also set the world record, given his awful technique and the facts that he had run 2 other races that same day and that the 400m wasn't really his event.

I am impressed that a man of average abilities was able to produce such lasting fruit -- the key was being surrendered to God.  How many people have above-average abilities and hardly accomplish anything of eternal value, because they are not submitted to God?  How many times have I complained about not using my gifts to their fullest extent and tried to find what my "calling" is? -- Instead of just asking God how I can be obedient to him right now, whether it be through the mere act of washing dishes or solving a Fourier transform.  Eric Liddell does not strike me as the type of man who would be paralyzed with such questions -- he would just pray, meditate, and go out and serve, immune to the quarterlife crisis, analysis paralysis and angst that plagues the current generations. Eric's joy and fulfillment came because he obeyed God, not specifically because he was doing what he deemed most fulfilling.  He chose God first, and God gave him fulfillment.  He lost his life to gain it.  Sometimes asking the question, "How can I do something of value?" can be a trap because the problem is the focus of that question is on "I" -- how can I feel fulfilled?  -- and serving God means forgetting oneself and making the focus of the question be God.

Quotes from book, Eric Liddell: Pure Gold by David McCasland
 
Eric's funeral:
 
Dr. Arnold Bryson:
"What was the secret of his consecrated life and far-reaching influence? Absolute surrender to God's Will as revealed in Jesus Christ. His was a God-controlled life and he followed his Master and Lord with a devotion that never flagged with an intensity of purpose that made men see both the reality and power of true religion."
 
Ted McLaren:
"Never once did he show the slightest sign of bad temper or bad sportsmanship on the field; both, it seemed to me, were utterly foreign to him. Many a time he was lain for by his opponents, whose tactics were at least doubtful, but never would he repay them in their own coin -- his method was invariable -- he merely played better rugby and made them look like second raters."
 
A.P. Cullen:
"I have known Eric for thirty-three years. I have been in frequent contact with him for the last twenty years. After his family left for Canada, he and I lived together, just the two of us, in my flat till January 1942. From then until he came here fourteen months later, almost every day I went for a long walk with him. And from my knowledge of him, gained in this close association over many years, I say that Eric is the most remarkable example in my experience of a man of average ability and talents developing those talents to an amazing degree, and even appearing to acquire new talents from time to time, through the power of the Holy Spirit. He was, literally, God-controlled, in his thought, judgments, actions, words, to an extent I have never seen surpassed, and rarely seen equaled.
The most noteworthy feature in Eric's life was the regular and rapid progress of his spiritual development. It is as phenomenal as the speed with which, in a 100-yard race, after being yards behind at halfway, he would catch up and pass the winning-post an easy first, leaving the other competitors standing. In the athletic world, no one knows how he did it-- it remains a mystery; but for his progress in the spiritual race there is a very clear and definite explanation.
First of all, absolute surrender to the Will of God. Absolute surrender -- those words were often on his lips, the conception was always in his mind; that God should have absolute control over every part of his life.
It was toward the attainment of that ideal that he directed all his mental and spiritual energies. It was no more easy for him than it is for us; let no one think that he did not have his temptations, just as we have, temptations to indolence, slackness, compromise, and what not. But he won his way through, by persistent study, regular times of devotion, constant meditation, insistent prayer, getting up early in the morning and spending one hour--two hours-- in a concentrated search for God's will as revealed in the teaching of Jesus and the Bible generally.
In recent years he laid much emphasis on the teaching in the Sermon on the Mount, which, he was convinced, embodied a really practical way of living, indeed the only practical way of living for a Christian. To him the supreme thing about God was God's love, even as love is the supreme necessity for a truly Christian life. Another of his favourite passages was the 13th chapter of 1st Corinthians.
No sketch of Eric's life, however inadequate, would be complete without some reference to his gift of happiness and joie-de-vivre. He loved the good things of life as much as any of us. But all his happiness-- the happiness that shone so radiantly on his face-- all his happiness had its basis in his serene faith in God, his love for God, and his appreciation of God's gifts."
 
Eric Liddell's teaching:
"Several years ago I sat in the grand stand at a great sports meeting where the finest athletes of the USA and the British empire met in competition. There was an Obstacle Run in which competitors had to run around the course many times, jumping hurdles as they went. After several rounds the competitors were fairly well separated, except for the first two who were running within ten yards of each other.
As the first man took one of the hurdles his foot struck the top of it and knocked it over. The blow was not hard enough to affect him much, a slight stagger and on he went. The fallen hurdle left a gap. It gave the second man the chance to run through the gap instead of taking a jump and thus gain a slight advantage.
Ten yards behind means less than two seconds.
In the fraction of a second at his disposal a decision was made, he swerved to the side, jumped the hurdle next to the fallen one and then moved back in to the edge of the track again.
I can remember the thrill that went through me, and the answering cheer that rose from the crowd. That was the finest thing done that day.
He did not win; I have forgotten who did, but I can never forget that action. He could not act otherwise,  he was led by the Spirit of Sportsmanship. It was ingrained in him, part of himself.
Sport is wonderful. The most wonderful part of it is not almost superhuman achievements but the spirit in which it is done. Take away that spirit and it is dead.
The Holy Spirit is to the Christian Life what sportsmanship is to sport and more. Without Him in our lives, even at the best, we are little better than Tennyson's Maud:
'Perfectly beautiful: let it be granted her: where is the fault?
All that I saw (for her eyes were downcast, not to be seen)
Faultily faultless, icily regular, splendidly null
Dead perfection and no more.'
Or in terms of sport: --
a marvellous player, beautiful strokes, magnificent timing, perfect style, but no sportsmanship about him, Dead perfection, no more."
 
 
 
 
 
"Whether a man's happiness depends on what he has, or what he is;
On outer circumstances, or inner heart,
On life's experiences -- good and bad -- or on what he makes out of the materials those experiences provide."
-- Hugh Hubbard
 
"Breathe on me breath of God,
Fill me with life anew
That I may love what Thou dost love,
And do what Thou wouldst do."
 
Hymn: Gracious Spirit, Dwell With Me
by Thomas Toke Lynch

 
Gracious Spirit, dwell with me, I myself would gracious  be,
And with words that help and heal, would Thy life reveal,
And with actions bold and meek, would for Christ my Saviour speak.
 
Mighty Spirit dwell with me, I myself would mighty be
Mighty so as to prevail, where unaided men must fail
Ever by a mighty hope, pressing on and bearing up.
 
Finlandia
Be still, my soul: the Lord is on they side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to they God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways lead to a joyful end.


Sunday, March 08, 2009

Psychoanalyzing Ramona Quimby

So I love reading the RQ books.  But what I notice is that Ramona may need emotional healing prayer when she reaches adulthood.  It's clear that she often thinks that the world is out to get her, and also thinks at times that her parents love her well-behaved, responsible older sister Beezus more than her. Even the cat, Picky-Picky, prefers Beezus.  She also needs to be the center of attention -- probably some kind of abandonment complex? She definitely has a victim mentality at times -- she can turn into a real drama queen.  The great thing about kids books is that these issues stand out so clearly and so obviously. As adults, we learn to mask these insecurities and pretend to be confident.

I love the scene where Ramona is having a fit in front of her family.. and she threatens to run away, hoping that they'll say, "No, no, please don't go, Ramona!" But no one stops her, and she walks off to her room and miserably starts to pack her 43 cents (in a Q-tip box), favorite crayons and clean pair of socks. Her mom comes in with a suitcase and helps her to pack... But intentionally loads up the suitcase with so much stuff that it is too heavy for seven-year-old Ramona to move it. Ramona realizes that her mother didn't want her to go all along, and her mother says, "I couldn't get along without my Ramona... I didn't stop you because you wouldn't listen to us."  These are the words that Ramona has been aching to hear -- that her mother couldn't get along without her -- because everyone always refers to Beezus, and not Ramona, as her mother's helper.  I think that all of us long to hear that from our loved ones -- "How can I get along without you?"  We want to feel cherished, needed, indispensable. Ultimately, we want God to affirm this truth in us, but it is hard to believe. We often more easily buy the lie that we are worthless to God, that no one will notice us if we disappeared.

Alan Tiegreen illustrates a sweet scene of Ramona with a tear in her eye, being lovingly embraced by her mother.  Again, I am aghast that the publisher has replaced Tiegreen's sketches with the modern, computerized graphics.


Monday, February 16, 2009

Ramona's new illustrator

So I started to read Beverly Cleary's Ramona Quimby series again. I love Ramona. She's such a straight shooter. Anyhow, I was aghast to find that the publisher has replaced Alan Tiegreen's classic illustrations with someone else's...  Yes, the new illustration's look "better" and more polished -- you can tell they've been computerized.  But the Tiegreen original line drawings just have so much more personality.  Ramona isn't Ramona unless Tiegreen's illustrations are included.  He really captures her essence.  So I rushed off to half.com to buy up the older copies of these books to save these treasured drawings!


Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Disney at Xmas, cont'd

 As promised, here are the festive photos:

A Mickey shaped Christmas wreath:

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Main Street, Magic Kingdom:

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Christmas fireworks at the Cinderella Castle, Magic Kingdom:

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Dancing Lights, Main Street, Hollywood Studios:

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Last but not least, Mickey & Minnie in Christmas garb:

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